2012 句点

连续两天update我的Blog,有气喘的感觉..
不过明天不得空所以今天就做个了解吧..
今天已经是364天了,过埋明天2011正式结束..
今年算不算充实咧,应该算是挑战性的一年吧..
中六生涯终于结束了,现在待业中..嘻嘻..
今年比起去年没太大的起伏咯..
还好,情绪不没有那么大的冲突..
一月到三月都在准备MUET还有小考,只是有一直在忙补习啦..
我记得今年四月第一次去捐血,还蛮有意义的..以后一定继续,不错的体验..
五月到九月都是一直重复重复的补习啊,读书啊,不堪回想..
很大压力,可能身边朋友都太棒了..
只怪技不如人,自己的脑没那么灵通..
个人有个人的特色和表现吧..不能怨别人..
其实七月到十月情绪有比较矛盾..
可能就是他对我说了那些话,影响了我..
真的很讨厌他了,如果不是他把那宁静的伤口再撒盐..我也不会被影响..
没有和谁提起过这件事,本人的性格就这样..这会把心事封闭..
有在努力改变这个缺点吧..学习释放自己,对吗? =)
给你一个忠告是,别再去伤害别的女孩了好吗?
给自己积点阴德吧..花心的人永远不会找到真爱的..
也应该祝福你,你还是要幸福..
愿我是那个守护你的天使,感谢我们曾经的美好..

十月和十一月最痛苦,因为要考试了..
STPM应该是考过最痛苦,最压力的考试吧..
感谢苍天我们终于脱离苦海..阿弥陀佛..
十二月就吃,喝,玩,乐咯..
人的本性,考完试加放假嘛..
去了一个意义和感性的集训营..
认识了一班热血青年,伤心,难过的心情有抛开了..
就快过完2011了..对今年也没太大的留恋..
很期待明年啦..世界末日嘛..
不过也有点迷茫和不舍..明年就要选择自己未来的路了..
还要跟一起同窗多年的朋友们分开..真的很不舍你们..
看不见的前方,会害怕..只能紧握你们的手,突破自己,障碍..
美好的前程等着我们..=)

总结,今年虽然没有很感触..但心情还是会有余悸..
感谢一起陪我捱过今年的每一位,有学着感恩..
去珍惜,毕竟我们预料不了下一秒..活在当下..我的宗旨..
之前还会被往事影响情绪,但我相信时间是良药..
我真的希望你在天堂过得很好..我们也是..
想起你时,还会像小孩的哭泣..
因为爱你,你在我的心目中无法取代的位置..
‘我爱你’,开始挂在嘴边了...
为2011花画下另一个句点..我记得去年也是在打着类是的总结..
只是又是一个不同的故事..
时间一直在走,路过的,是另一种心情,故事..
看法改变,应该就是这一段故事最大的成功吧..
祝你新年快乐..
新一年,美好的开始..
旧的,就跟他说再见吧..
永远也别回头了..珍惜你的下一秒...=)

                                                                 Goodbye2011~
                                                             

                                                   Draw our dream,with our fantasy brain~^^

                                                                    Lets go 2012~

                                                     My 6th form life..goodbye~=')

In the end,i knew you are a what kind of people..not going hate you,it's too tired for me..just let it      go,yimei~

                                                             Follow your dream..be yourself~

                                            hope i may meet my lover,2012..hehe..^^

ARP Camp 心情总结

 集训营结束了已经有几天了,只是每天的notification都被青年卓越大奖集训营 ARP大家庭的post boom爆了..自己也忍不住去 3 8 一下啦..所以一直没时间去写我的部落格..
不过还好,就给时间我去整理一下思绪..

这个集训营是在我们考试之前就报名了,因为错过了两届,所以决定参与这届,反正现在假期..
我可以说,没有后悔参加了这个集训营..=)
集训营第一天刚好是冬至..一早就得起床了,帮忙拜神..
其实有点累,但就死撑啊..所以，晚上没有失眠耶..
我们那组第一天也不齐人啊,可能是大日子,有些也赶着巴士来..
刚开始还真的不熟,没什么可以讲,就随便的介绍自己..谁知道结束时大家是这么吵的..
因为那天人没到齐所以组里选组长会有少许意见分歧,其实经过5天之后,
真的赞成敬尧说的,我们就带着什么都没有而来,而结束时,却带着满满的经验回去..
真的不一定是能干的那一位才会有好的表现,一个有责任心的人..
无论给什么工作他/她终究会有好的交代..这有改变到本人的想法,也感谢我们的大组长,峻铭,这几天的带领.是不是完美的结局并不重要,重要的是我们都有在过程学习了什么..
最大的挑战是要在很短的时间里完成任务和解决问题,建立了一种速度,也有友谊..
谢谢北组的每一位,大家就算累,也撑着半粒眼一起熬夜,务必要把明天的任务完成..

 也感谢第七组,谢谢你们每一位的故事..故事后面都有一个主人..

那位主人愿意把他/她精彩的故事和你分享..而且每一个故事都有它的意义存在..

                             谢谢北组一起熬夜赶工,还有其他督导的帮忙..

                                           对我说,每一个流程,都有一个完美的结束..

在这五天里去了三个地点做义工..第一地点是捡垃圾,第二是义卖会帮忙,最后有探访智障残缺中心..每次的任务都有不一样的体验吧..
捡垃圾那边有觉得惭愧耶..虽然说我没有时常乱丢垃圾,但有时候真的会手贱的丢糖果袋或塑料袋..有体验到那种捡垃圾的辛苦...我以后不敢乱丢了..=x
义卖会那部分其实还真的很累,喊到喉咙干..我们北组负责那部分是游戏和小孩绘画比赛的..我们好像赶小鸡那样lo..也不懂走了多少轮..来来去去..一直重复..
小组分享里有听到现在小孩的压力很大,无可否认的赞成..也自愧不如他们,不过年龄阶层不一样我们拥有的童年也不一样..我们还是较向往那种比较单纯的简单童年就好..不必强求..
去过智障院的都会学会感恩吧..共鸣,我们都是幸福的小孩..四肢健全,头脑发达,是他们遥不可及的希望..你能拥有的已经太多了,别埋怨..你很幸福..别哭泣,他们比你更坚强..
之前有一个post是：你一伸手就可以抓住的幸福..真的,你已经拥有它了..
心灵之旅,多美的名字..多大的领悟..

当然我们还有智能与你还,青年才艺晚会和古币世界..
这几项活动主旨都是要激发你平时细节上所忽视的本能..
你知道我们为什么要给你们这么多的难关吗?尤其是古币世界..
因为我们要的不是虚伪,不真实的你..
有时候生活就是那么直接没有安歌的..我们不需要戏剧化的演出,你就是你..
不用被自己情绪,还是事情牵着鼻子走..就走你觉得对的路..
也别被自己设下的框框而限定,这是我所学到的..
谢谢你们努力的表演,真的很棒!

我们最不舍的其实是经过五天后（营员四天）所建立的梁桥 ,还没来得及用,就得分离了..
在集训营里面所学的根本就无法用言语表达,可以肯定是没有遗憾认识了你们..
认识了很多很多朋友,个个都很棒!值得学习..
有3 8 主席啦,KBOX五强啦,自恋狂啦等等耶..你们都给我们带来欢乐了..谢谢你..=)
最后一天当第一首歌播起,眼泪就开始打滚..
听见隔壁那位芝欣小姐哭泣声,眼泪就这样哗然的掉了..
不能掩饰啦..真的很感动..虽然就短短的几天..
和你们建立的友谊永远都不会忘记你们..
每一位营员都有自己的特色,性格..你们都是无法被取代..
感谢和你们的相遇,期待有缘再见..
我爱你..营里的每一位每一位..

这个假期真的过得很充实..一些不开心的事也抛开了,没有压力,只有欢乐..

其实张老师第一天叫我们紧握双拳然后张开,有领悟到一个道理,那是释放..

当我们握得紧紧时候,我们只会感受到痛,压力..当张开了,是一种很舒服的释放..

就像我们现在活着的社会,都太紧绷了..其实快乐,一直就在我们身边..

把手放开,也放开自己..活出自在,享受..

过去真的有被一些事困恼,也把自己困住了..

学会了,不把过去左右自己前进..是应该放手和他说再见..和快乐说,欢迎你..=')

                                       谢谢你,特别喜欢这句:Mum有Maria，Maria有Mum..

                                                                 感谢自己的参与..

                                        感谢你们做给督导们做的小礼物..我爱你们..=)

 在这次除了学会把‘我爱你’要挂着嘴边之外,还学会了Aluba~~哈哈..很搞笑..真的有从心里笑出的感觉..从爸爸那件事后,鲜少酱开心的笑了..You all melt my heart..thanks!

                              很珍惜短时间的友谊..很可定的是,它会一直蔓延下去..
                                                               存在心里..=)

                                                                   傻婆..haha..^^

 心灵之旅,我们都感受到了..带着满满的爱心去..虽然那是空手..却带着满满的感动回家..
我们的收获是用钱衡量不了的..我们很幸运..愿你把这份幸福分享与人..感恩

               我们都是卓越青年..远离那些对你没益的人,事吧!参与我们,获益不浅...=)

      谢谢张爸爸..感激你为名族奋斗..让我们现在的青年找到一个可以充实自己的集训营..

              有梦想的青年最伟大..因为梦,而伟大..因为梦,而努力..因为梦,而找到了自己..

                         

nice to meet you,my new friends..you all are too nice for me..so funny at all..felt great to knew you all..and never regret...I Love You,我爱你^^

你一伸手就可以抓住幸福了..

你是不是整天埋怨自己不幸福??感觉不到它??
你去求它,硬把它逼在身边..把它价值给贬值了..
别把幸福的定义定得太高..别让它总是离你很远很远..
一份早餐,午餐,晚餐也是一种幸福...如果是和你爱的人一起吃,那更加幸福得不得了..
和你心爱的人出去,牵手本来就很美好的事..
别埋怨他/她不能给你什么..能在一起已经很幸运了.还要苛求什么..
现在facebook不是有很多人在个人status里上载,我单身,很寂寞..
她/他不爱我..我要找另一个她/他..其实有时候,就看到很烦..
但又不能撤除,毕竟某些是朋友..我也常看到你上载的啊..
什么很寂寞,很不开心,每天重复又重复,重复又重复..看到我都会背了..
你每次看到这些status,你自己不觉得很可悲的咩??
难怪,越来越down..每天看着这些伤感的status,是人都不开心咯..

你就没有想过幸福是垂手可得的事吗??
一定要爱人陪吃你,早餐,午餐,晚餐然后才会是甜的吗??
一定要有爱人就一定幸福吗??
那没有爱人的人就很糟糕咯??!!
不赞成咯..什么道理,朋友,家人就不能给你带来幸福的滋味咩??
其实,自己也能给自己幸福...
也许会孤独,但你的想法不要这么极端..
幸福,你一伸手就可以抓住了..

一张美的照片,可以让你的心情变美好..
一顿好吃的食物,可以让你一整天开心..
一个美好的约会,可以让你整天变甜..哪怕就一个人..
一首动听的歌,也可以带给你幸福..
这么容易得到的幸福反而往往被漠视..
是不是要跟着时间脚步把要求也变高,将你认为应该拥有幸福的事情也提高..

将这讽刺的要求拉低一些,你所谓的幸福都不会变得那么可悲..
不是恨你,一点都没有..只是可怜你..
别要求多多,你要求别人..别人也会要求你..
有一本书说,我们一直追着幸福跑..
其实它就像尾巴,一直跟着你..向你摇摆..
你又干嘛去追它咧??

               幸福,是不会敲一个可怜人的门..它,只会向那些懂得珍惜它的人招手..

                 你担心什么,我们本来就一个人..上天总有一天,一定会眷顾你的..
                              DON'T WORRY,BE WORRY..=)

其实我很累,很眼睡..但是都是要Update har geh blog..
趁回忆还在,无谓让你在我脑海消失..你酱真贵..=)
我由星期二考完试那天开始,忙到现在..忙咩? 忙着玩咯...
这个是理所当然的,只不过发现原来没有真正痛快的休息一下..
考完试应该是甜梦,但是竟然有试过失眠..
接受不到突然间的变化挂,过着一年半的压力生活,突然没了压力.
好像不真实..不习惯..=X  现在开始习惯着..
我没有好好酱睡超过十个小时..之前睡的比现在反而更多..
星期二煲dvd,星期三弄车,星期四街街,星期五染发,星期六仲忙..
一早5S1踢足球,早餐,晚上帮嘉仪提早庆祝生日..

今天就家里打扫除..其实我手好酸..坚持完这篇跟着去休息啦..
我,不是埋怨,其实是应该开心的事..过完酱痛苦的日子,是时候玩一下..
有时候,就是酱贱格,越是美好,越会嫌弃..不懂珍惜的人,最后只有后悔..
其实我只不过想睡一场很长很长的觉而已..我的要求其实都不多啦..=)
下星期应该都没有这个机会了..星期四进Camp 到再下星期一返..

我不是大忙人,只不过酱时间排满去覆盖寂寞..
2011就快过完,是真的酱未完成的事全部做完的..
要见的人就好见啦..就好像昨天我们班5S1一起踢球时候先提到,
到时候我们都不知道会去到哪里读书,或许很远,
或许我们连一个很小很小的聚会都无法参与,可能比这次还少..
要在那之前,全部聚集一起..去记得大家每一个面,每一个笑容..
以后就算在某处想念,都还记得你的面....

 

 这一班朋友是属于很感性的,因为一起经历过:喜。怒。哀。乐~

越来越来少机会聚集,其实真的是很珍惜你们和感谢你们..=)

 终始少人但任然继续这次的足球,因为..我们真是不知道还有没有下一次..
很悲哀的口吻,但是..是现实...所以残酷...

 2009 和 2011 真是很大分别..我们毕业了两年了...但其实心里大家一直都有大家..

一直没改变,我知不是只有我是这样...而是我们班每一个心里都是..我们或许不会讲出来,因为怕讲出来....大家其实真是很不舍得..就将我们的回忆一直好开心好开心的蔓延,

到以后的聚集,虽然不同了,成熟了..但任然是曾经当年的一分子...好像<那些年,我们一起追的女孩>那样感触..=')


假期虽然还有很长很长,但不能天天出街,煲碟的嘛..有点没意义加闲....=~=
Camp之后应该去找工或做工..不然真的是,坐吃山崩~~=O
玩埋这个星期先,享受完..然后体验历练啦..哈哈...=)
朋友仔,假期愉快啦...=D

It should be a happy ending..

i'm lying my blog here for....few months??few weeks??haha..forgot la..
by the way,it's gonna activate it from..i'm very free now...=) and like want writing somethings but becoz of exam so stay on my mind..not a reason,really a fact..sometimes writing the blog is let me fresh back somethings and refresh my brain..just a place scream out the feeling and what i had saw and think..
my sixth form life really ended...exam over...it's won't be come back for your life anymore..
my yesterday facebook status,

yea!Exam had over!!throws ur notes and put ur hands up!Merdeka!!:D

should be happy right now??hmm...i not sure the feeling now...
it like a dream,i woke up in the morning then asked myself,really finished exam liao ar??
so unreality..didn't doing anythings at all today..to celebrate,to rest and to give a space for myself..
scanning the brain..and formatting all the things...like everythings delete,have a new starting..
somethings stay in ur memory card,when u didn't open it,u may not remember it..
but once u open that,your emotional will be influence by that..
i'm stopped posted any things before stpm..
From the revision,till the exam started,till the exam over...
All became blur...like my body not beloved myself..like live in the hell..struggled..
sometimes not becoz of the memorize methods..is you must handled many things in a second..
you're rushed,tired,crazy..but you still have to keep going..
you need to think careful of your every steps..

Emotional is always controlled your mind too..it made you can't do anythings..
you start keep sighed,then lost...then tried to escaped the  problems..then hope the exam faster over..
it quiet confusing...@.@ that's all the teenagers facing the problems..isn't it is a infectious disease or facebook infectious disease...saw your friend emo,then you influence by them？？so better keep away from this kind of friends..=X should be be friend with the happy friends,may they hiding their sadness..but better than you always seeing their sadness status,like i always saw ur status is fucking annoying..but cant delete u..=~=
not care so much already..coz finally all ended..i'm just hoping it will be another new start for us..
you need to adapt the new changes..can you do that??

The ending is here,but i can say that our friendship will never ending..it will forever stay in our life..although we may go far far study..at least we have the wonderful time before..it should be happy and acceptable..
hope everyone will be happy always and Happy Hug's Day...=)
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     It is the fact..don't think too much,please...=x

      Happy Hug's Day..people celebrate this special day with their lover but i'm not..i'm celebrate with my best friend,ah boon~ sometimes friend is someone who not hurt you and make you feel warm..=)

 Haha..funny pic..but in fact we did it...but i will choose Pizza Hut~~kaka..=D

Say Good bye~~

STPM just a corner...okay..thats i remind myself...i hate it most than everyone...
i know it has not left many time..around 40days...so is time to 'bie guan'..
i had waste many time...Time for family..time for you..time for friend..time for me...
It's totally wasted!!yes..i never ever stupid as now...this was first time and my last time..ever and never more..
never.....it will be a nightmare in my life..a small dot,spoiled my life..OMG..>.<
you'll never know how i go through these..because i hope i can disappear in this chilled world..can i??
i hope you will in my dream..because i miss you most..i hope you will be there..but reality tell me..it just a little dream for me..but i still hope that..i miss you,my lovely baba...=')
Happy is cannot pretend...it must from heart..1 day you will see that,the true smile of Me...
congraz for your new relationship of you...i have no feeling while looking at your status..because i don't like you anymore...i believe retribution...not gonna wish you.just hope may God bless you..see when you're fallen..learn it from you..chill...hate you..

''Don't Worry if you're Single, God is looking at you right now,saying''I'm saving this one for someone SPECIAL''..=)

actually i enjoy my single life...no stress,no sad,no burden....Enjoy it girl!!
i will close all the thing..include me...to prepare the exam and start my new life..
never as last time..i will never depend on someone anymore..i will be myself..Yimei Chua aka Barley ice..=)

okay...i will close my blog until my STPM finish..no post at all..this is my last post before the exam...
goodbye my blog a short period...
i promise...when i post the new post later,you will see the new yimei...new life..really...=')

byebye..i will always miss you all...

imma a emo girl..but i believe i will go through it..don't come and comfort me..i don't need it..=')

i love you...my dear bear..muakzzxx!!=3 thanks for accompany anytime...

                    ByeBye~~^^

Form 6 Graduation~

It can said that,our sixth form life is just a corner..almost end..
it's time wanna saying goodbye..Did you have a strong feeling on it?
maybe it's not strong as last time form 5 graduation..but it still was a best memory in my life..=)
We started from stranger...A 'Hi' and hand shake started our friendship..
It started with a dislike until a accepted..until a good friend..
we cannot admit some 'friends' was rejected by us..but we doesn't mean tat we hate them..
we are just not close each other...=]
it can say,we should rejoice it's a experience in our life..Isn't?
we learned how to communication..we learned adapted in a stranger environment..we learned how to survive in any suck situation..and..we learned appreciate..You never know,they are the only person helping you when any situation..Sharing and caring is our attitude..X)
This one and half year sixth form life is not bad...at least we have some things good,somethings bad..thats call life...enjoy but suffer...But any situation...We still us..that the person full of dream..
And Friendship forever...♥
''Ignorance of youth is a bustling, always leaving displaced injuries, how I hope that tomorrow the sun, burning my dreams decay''~

    It's time to say goodbye to SMI...thanks for the all giving memory..it have sweet..it have bitter..but i like it..

 Leng lui product of SMI...LOL~~XDD

 Thank you all the teachers giving the knowledge to us in this 1&half year..we can't do somethings to return you..we just can remember you forever..=)

 Haha..a weird group...XD

 Thank you for the same class together..i had learned a lot...

 

YiMei+YeeMei~~haha^^

 Actually i had snap many photos..but the photo i love the most is this 1..

Because there is all ex JPP-ian~

we survive in this school together..we had plenty of friends and joy..

Bur Our friendship Never End~~♥

 

祸不单行VS 意外收获

从前几天开始中指不懂做么肿了!!>.<
很丑耶...你看!>.<

    两个都是中指怎么右手的比较大啊!!=目

                                  很痛耶!!痛到睡不着啊!!>.<

没有办法啦.我顶不顺了...就去Satu Malaysia Clinic 看医生啦...一块钱吧了嘛...真好..不过不希望时常去找你耶...哈哈...

 

Satu Malaysia..nice~=)) the important is...RM1 only!!kaka

 

yer..最讨厌就是吃药!!你还逼我吃...= ='' oO~~saya mau mati..

今天也是姐姐在马六甲回来啊...哇..意外的是买了很多'奇怪'的手信耶..
不过谢咯...很好玩啊!!也很喜欢...当是安慰安慰一下我咯..XD

我姐姐买的手信...哈哈...有些很奇怪哦..XD

  哇...武林秘诀啊?!XD

  好多玩的还有收藏的哦..有送人的还有实用的...不错哦.Souvenir from Melaka...=D

 还有手链!!<3

 

我选红色的!!好运快过来!!最近真的衰到没路...>.

  haha!!还有Angrybird！你不要我要..我拿来用先..酱可爱..Boom~~^_^
 祸不单行VS 意外收获..希望下次只有好的..没有霉运!!>.